Exhaustion

Tired and ready for bed. It occurred to me tonight while getting leg cramps while doing pilates, that I may (just maybe) may need to give my body some real rest. I was thinking I was invincible--could handle any workout I was throwing at myself. Clearly, I was wrong. If nothing else, I wanted to sleep without pharmeceuticals... I will have my wish tonight as it is hard just to stay awake right now. As with everything else, I'm going to push it for another 15 minutes; I don't want any false sleep alarm where I crawl into bed and then can't sleep. Tonight, I want to be out--no weird dreams induced by sleeping pills, no tossing and turning and fighting time, just pure, divine sleep. If you have never had long-term insomnia, you cannot truly appreciate the kind of sleep that is like crawling onto a cloud; the kind where your mind slows down long enough for your body to catch up; the kind even the cats appreciate and leave you alone to enjoy. That is the sleep I'm hoping for tonight, if I just hold out a little longer...